SUMMER TIME

March 13, 2008. 04:00 PM, St. Paul College Pasig, High School Department, formally dismissed its students for 2 months. In short, SUMMER TIME.

What the hell, I'm still going to school next Monday, 'cause my grades are at risk. Most especially Asian History and Math. I hate myself. Fuck. Shithead! Damn. Oh well.

Last Friday, 'twas our Soph Night; ETERNITY. And, hell yeah. It was one hell of a party! Everyone looked so gorgeous. I just love my batch. And of course, my ever beloved, 2-2. :) We danced the night away! It was really fun! Kudos to the organizers, my beloved friends, Ramona Ancheta, Yve Galang, and Vanessa Lim! You guys did great! :)

After the party, I went straight home. That sucks. 2-2 went to eastwood to have some drinks. Damn. But, I told them I wont be drinking for this summer. Haha! I told my friend, Gean, I'm not gonna drink. Cause IF "dada", after some shots, will be wasted, I WILL be the one who'll take care of her. Gean said 'twas so sweet. Oh, what can I say. ;)

Saturday, I went to school for two reasons; 1st, to get my phone to Gean AND 2nd, watch the seniors (07-08) 's Graduation. Hell, Im gonna miss them. Especially my friends. :( And yeah, I gave someone a bear and a letter, who, unfortunately, lost the letter. Damn it. How could you? Anyway, its aight. I think we're not in good terms at the moment. :'(

A while ago, I was chatting with PL, a close friend of mine. She teases me, as always, to someone. Someone who had been part of my lovely life. Hahaha. I got all bored, and decided to play Sally's Salon, after playing for almost an hour, I closed the window. And boom! That someone, IM-ed me. Oh noo. Pl, you really have something to do with this, girl. Hahaha!

Next week, it'll be Alex and Bea's party. Im not sure if Im still gonna come. I love them both to death. If ever Im not going, I'll just send them a gift to someone's who's going. But, what gift am I gonna buy them? Haha. Bahala na si Batman. :p Bottom line is, I LOVE THEM BOTH, and I dont wanna miss their party. But, i just dunno. Sorry babies! :(

RANDOM

Every moment I'm with you,
I just want to stop the time and make you all mine.

I really like this person. I do not know what to do. I like her, I REALLY do. I want to take risks, but, I'm too afraid. I do not want our friendship to end that way.

I miss the feeling when someone cares for you.
'abbie. i miss you. i dont know why. sorry.'
I know she's happy with her life now. I'm happy for her too. But I find it really unfair. She moved on while I'm TRYING to move on and go on with my life. With all the efforts I gave to her, it seems like worthless.

I always fall with the WRONG person.
:(

God, can you please give me someone who's worth my love, effort, and care? :(
Lagi na lang ako yung nag bubuhos ng effort, pero, ano yung nakukuha ko? WALA. NOTHING. :( I'm tired with this. Kung pwede nga lang manhid na lang ako eh. Para naman I wont feel the same way again, cause I know this will ALWAYS be happening.. --Me giving ALL the effort but what do I get in return? :( I'm sick and tired with this.

THERE'S A PIECE OF YOU THAT'S HERE WITH ME

"THIS may be the worst feeling EVER. --having a crush on your friend. I am so sorry for this post. For being cliche and childish post (wala pa nga sa kalahati yung post, nag ssorry na ako diyan. 8| ANYWAY). At first, I didn't want to post this here because t'was just a waste of time. But now that this feeling gets stronger AND stronger everyday, I just can't help but put my thoughts here in my blog. I couldn't share this to my other friends cause I'm pretty sure this would reach my 'friend'.

I thought this wouldn't last long. It did not last long, actually. 'til one day, seeing my 'friend' on a stage play.. Oh, Geeee. :| You know what I mean. I do not know what to do. I'm being a paranoid human being. I just don't know how to deal with this. I DO NOT KNOW.

What if telling it to my "friend"? I have done this a lot of times, confessing and shit. But this one is something I can't do.. Something I'm afraid to do. I do not want our friendship to fade and all. But, how about me? My feelings? Goodness. PWEDE BANG MAGING MANHID NA LANG?

bye."

LAW OF ATTRACTION.

I LIKE YOU.
AS IN, I LIKE YOU.

THE WAY YOU TALK
THE WAY YOU SLAP ME
THE WAY YOU LAUGH
THE WAY YOU STARE ON A BLANK SPACE
And most specially,
THE WAY YOU PULL YOUR HAIR --REDUNDANTLY (Ha ha)
in short..

I like every piece of you.

I just can't explain the feeling.
First, you're happy with it.. Then eventually, you know that it just upto there. No more, no less. "Just friends", they say.

I don't know if you feel that I like you. But, I hope you feel that I really care.
When you tell me something, notice my eyes, looking deeply into yours. Trying to tell you, 'I like you so much' and 'I really care'.